October 18, 2008 § Leave a comment
What a horrible weekend. Not that having to deal with the hubby’s health issues weren’t enough, we got into a huge fight on our “Date Night” on Saturday. Then another huge fight on Sunday. I really thought that it was over…the marriage, our life together, everything. It is not a 24 hours I would ever want to repeat. I just don’t know what to feel or what to even think anymore. The “D” word came up alot. Lots of tears, lots of yelling.
How could we be so strong for each other going through infertility, month after month, year after year and then when we finally do have a miracle happen, we are at each others throats? It just make no sense to me. There is so much in my life and my heart right now that I don’t know what to do or what to feel. I just know that that I hate feeling like this.
I think that I am at a crossroads in my life. I have to think of my children’s well being and my own sanity and happiness. Something has to change. If it doesn’t, I know that irrepairable damage will be done.