I have become what I most despised…
March 23, 2009 § 5 Comments
I was the formerly infertile mom who brought her beautiful kids into the fertility clinic. Yup….and I made a bunch of angry infertiles wait while I had my blood drawn so that we could donate our embryos. They looked at me with such disgust, scorn and disdain. And I suppose I cannot blame them. I knew the look in their eyes. I had the very same look. The “when is it going to be my turn” look.
I can remember thinking, while sitting in the waiting room, what kind of a mean, hateful woman, would bring her kids with her, flaunting them to women who are desperate for their own children. Today, I had no choice. I didn’t want to be “that woman”. But the women in line don’t know my story, they don’t know that the bloodwork I had done today will be so that another infertile couple have a chance to have their miracle. They don’t know the immeasurable amount of tears that went into our miracle finally happening for us. They don’t know that I have been where they are.
I am sure some among the group thought that I was there because we were doing IVF again (being greedy). Oh, if they only knew….neither of my kids slept last night. They took turns screaming, and the hubby and I got no sleep. No, I will not be doing IVF again. Two is plenty….two is more than enough for me.
I sincerely hope that each of those women can forgive me, and I pray that their miracle happens for them.