June 18, 2009 § 4 Comments
I know that I have been too quiet. Things around here are just too much for me to handle some days. The babies are in their “we refuse to be restrained” phase, and are pretty much kicking my butt. The hubby took yesterday off to give me a little bit of a break. I really didn’t get one, but it was a nice gesture on his part.
I had a few days where my depression got the best of me. I hate feeling like that. It was 48 full, long hours of me in self-loathing, worst mother and person in the world, feeling like I was going to burst in to tears at any moment kind of a thing. And I didn’t go off my meds or anything. It just creeped up on me and felt so dark. And then I woke up, and felt like I could deal with life again. It has to be hormonal….I don’t know if there is any other way to explain it.
Our garden is pretty much shot. We have had so much rain that the slugs…ewwwwww….took over and pretty much ate everything. I got a dew radishes, and a few peas, but the cucumbers, cauliflower, onions, peppers and cilantro are gone. We might try again. I don’t know. I just hate slugs more than anything in the world. The slugs won!
My parents are back home on Saturday. That means at least I can have someone to talk to other than the hubby. It also means that I can drop the kids off for an hour or two and have some me time. I know, that sounds selfish, but really, the last week and a half without having my parents around has been so difficult. I didn’t realize how much they really do help me out with the twins.
We were hoping to have a date night this week, but that isn’t going to happen. Our sitter is busy and I will not make my parents watch the kids after being in the car for 7+ hours. So, it, like many things in my life, will have to wait.
I guess the only real bright spot is that we have found a home for the frosties. The family is “ready to go” and maybe everything that happened was for a reason. I was really upset about the other family. But this family, well, it seems that all of the stars have aligned. Oh, and her name is the same as my sister’s…just spelled differently. Is that weird or what? My sister’s name is not at all common.
I have a metric ton of laundry to put away while the kids are taking their nap. I just wanted to let anyone who is still reading know that I am alive and still somehow, by the grace of God, keeping my head above water.